wat i m

at home - someone who will always laugh and talk at the wrong time
- in my family's opinon my result is good
-someone who is a money face
- a loner at hm - no one reali understand my feelin
at school - super enthu abt alot of things but always canno find someone to go wit
- super idiot who no one likes
- a super loner who r actin as a very friendly person
at CCA - super enthu but dun show it out
- wan to help in many things but canno even stick my finger in
- dun lik drill but stil pretend to lik
- love to sing song but is not greatly encourage by friends
- dun reali hav someone who have intrest wit mi
- so in the end = a loner again

so .... all this points add up together = a TOTAL loner ...... hopeless freako ......... so nowadays i had decided to be a TOTAL loner ......... how to b ??
at hm - dun talk unless needed
- ignore everything - pretend to b blind
at school- mute - dun talk unless needed
-b blind - dun care abt anything activities
- concentrate on learnig instead of dreaming
at CCA - join activities i likes - no matter my friends wan to join or not
- be a invisible ppl - appear only when needed
- juz keep quiet for the whole GB meeting
- anywa i no need to talk as i not goin to be anyone
at anywhere - bring joy to urself
- dun care abt the other
- you are what you are
- remenber
EVERYONE IS GOD'S CREATION = EVERYONE IS PERFECT IN GOD'S EYES

busy day

wow........ got alot of things need to be done ......... lol ......... so many tat i need to crack joke ...... to slow my pace ........ lol............ christabel and i are lik doin project ....... when also i did somethin funny ........ and its lik christabel fell to the ground and laugh .......... she looks lik she is havin a heart attack ........ so i decided to tell our ivp gals abt it ..........
"Oh my! Christabel is having a heart attack..... how ....."
lol ........ different ppl had different reaction ..........lol
Wan Lin and Emily did not get trick and somemore add tat i m hopeless
Blossom had no reaction or isit she having her guitar lesson ...... i dun kno
Cheryl ...the funniest woman i had ever kno ............ she immediately call and ask if christabel is ok ............ lol .......... so funny ................ how can she blive tis kind of thing ...........lol
ya........ need to go and alot things liao .......... so bb

definition of emotion ( HAPPY)- part 1

dun really know what to blog ....... notice that i not using short-cut .........cause i want my english to improve ......... though the dots is still there ...........but that is my style .... cannot help it ........ i dun like to write compo but love to blog .......... LOL ......... nothing to say ........... oh ......... since i am the well-known emotional gal ......... i should definite the emotion for everyone ...........

HAPPY
...... also know as gay ........this word usually appear with a smile or even giggle ......... when people are happy ........ they tend to laugh and sing ........... y ?? ............ i also dun know ....... but this had become a natural reaction .......... SMILE + LAUGH =HAPPY ........... i mean to me ......... when people are happy ........you can actually sense it ......... its normal ....... and you will laugh with them .....joke with them .......... i mean ....... people are happy become of many things like good result ...... found a new love .......... strike toto ......... or even simple things like just brought a new clothes or a new doll ...... its how people's point of happy ....... someone may think that simple things like other people smile or new bag ........make them happy but not all ......... what i think is ........ happy is simple thing that we can do it everyday ...... smile to everyone .......... brighten everyone day .......... and makes yourself happy ........

fake world

juz realise tat tis world is full of fake ppl ...........every1 is soo fake .......... so should i say everyone is a actor .......... everyone can in front of the ppl they dun reali lik ......... instead of tell them ........they r juz actin ............ is it a muz for everyone to b a actor ..........wat wrong wit tellin the ppl frankly tat u dun lik their attitude .........wat wrong ........... mayb ......mayb .......... they will change ......... to become a better person .......... i dun get it ............ it juz take one brave soul to stand out and tell tat some1 ... but ...... no one seem to dare .........the biggest mistake of LIFE .......... is to make a mistake in other ppl life ............ everyone loves mask ............differnet types of it ........... happy ........sad ........ friendly....kind ............. i dun get it .......... if u dun lik tis person ........... juz tell him or her will do ......... tere is a no need to act ......... cuz soon or later ...........she or he will find out ........ and dislik will become hatred ......... and both will bcome BEST of friends .............

i m emotional...... laugh at tis second .......... cry at another ........ so wat wrong wit tat ............ i found it ok ........... at least i m expressin out my feelin .......... its bette than keepin it inside .............. i hav a face that if i dun smile i will hav a black face ..........i havin a black face ....... doesn't mean tat i m angry .......... though it sometime mean tat ............ but not all the time .......... i not need to put on a smile everyday .......... even on days tat i dun wan to put ......... i need not rite ...... its my own emotion .............not others .......... so other need not control my feelin ................

ppl always think tat cryin mean weak .......... i TOTALLY disagree wit tat .......... i can cry wit joy ..... anger ............sadness ........wateva it takes .......... i can juz cry ............ i need not control my tear ............. SO ........... I AM MYSELF ............. not anyone ...............

sing JOYs

i m soo happy nowadays ............ kept talkin to myself .........enjoyin myself .........to a state tat i think i m mad ........lol .......... these are the few things i wan to sing ......... JOY ..............

first thing
I PASS ALL my tests .......... though its a muz to pass la ......... but i feel tat its miracle .........lol ....... i did not really listen to the teacher talkin ...... lol......... then stil can pass .... dreamin away ..... lol ..... dreamin away ..........thinkin of someone .... mayb............. lol.......

second thing
i think i m in love wit STRESS ..... lol ......... cuz i m work best wit it .......... i can cope well wit it ........... giv better result ......... enjoyin the stress ......... will giv the BEST ..........lol ........... so muz b in love wit stress ............

third thing
i m in love ......... i think ............. lol ............. wit someone .......... wait for his sms ......... kept lookin at the phone ...... hope to talk to him more ....... lol .... I M IN love ........... LOL......... THIS MAKE MI VERY GAY .........

forth thing
i love to b leader ........... juz love to b ............wit all the stress and EVERYTHING ..........love ....

ya .......tat all MAIN 4 thing .....i m in love ................so ya ............gtg ..........mayb he had juz sms something ............gay .........again ................neve mind i m always lik tat ............

TO : MY BEST FRIENDS

IN MY WORLD, NO ONE IS LEFT BEHIND.... SO IF YOU ARE FACING ANY PROBLEM .....TALK TO MI ........... I WILL HELP YOU ......... NO MATTER WHAT ......... SO THIS MEAN YOU ARE SPECIAL ............

i wan to give UP

...........tis week a lot of things make mi wan to give up ............... not tat i m a easily give up type but ...........tere too many ........ i real i canno stand ......... first ......... i give up the passion of becomin a leader in GB ........... not tat easy 4 mi ............ but they love pri skool ppl lik mad .......... will always choose them as leader ........ok ........... not only tat ........... my studies ........... feel lik some1 who studied b4 the test can get sooo high ............. i study two weeks b4 the test ........... marks so low ..............UNFAIR...........then is my family .............. dun reali lik them ...........so bias ....................... so bias .................. then is the competition ............ one teacher say tis ........another say tat ............. then tat 1 say tis ............. so many ppl say so many things ............then who should we listen to ....... somemore my parnter damm busy ................. tat is lik ............every day she is sooo BUSY .................. how ............. very stress up lei ............somemore some1 got 3 days neve talk to mi ..............VERY SAD ............