2011 to me is kind of..... boring? not really exciting as what i feel for other years? It is my resolution for 2012 to join all stuffs and try out NEW things :D (first thing for the year is CLUBBING!! YES LM, i am really going to try) ok ok! I am supposed to talk about my 2011!
Though it is a boring year, i definitely learnt several life lesson and gained new perspective in things. (the korean drama which is playing now is very irritating. the parents always objected the marriage of the children! then the couple fight and blah... haiz..! )
To keep things short, i will sum 2011 into 3 points?
1. A level result! This totally prove that how hard you study doesnt mean your result will prove it. My result seriously sucks and it is first time in my life that i am standing at a junction. For my other friends, it seems so easy for them. They receive acceptance letters and even have choices to make between all the university in Singapore. ME? I cant do anything till to my GP, though i kept telling other people that i am ok and fine. In actual fact, i am just upset and unhappy. However, i came to a point that the university doesnt matter but the courses you choose and what you want to choose matter. I dont want to get into a university just because the name of university is nice. I just want to get good grades and go to my dream job which is a finance industry or economist? :D ( that's part of the reason why i dont want to choose peking university. i think study chinese is really not my path) ANYWAY, i got what i want, my economics and finance, i am gonna strive hard and work my way to LSE for master :D FIRST CLASS HONOURS, HERE I COMEE!
2. friendship. I guess at different point of life, you will start to realise that not all friendships really have friend forever. However, there are some friendships that can grew stronger and even better. 2011, is the year where i started to connect to all my sec school buddy and had stronger bond with them. (LM,LY, ZY, SP, EM, CJ and more) Though we didnt really talk during our jc years, we are still able to talk and share our secrets with each other. Of course, i met new friends in my university and start to socialise. They really taught me a lot of stuff like all the brands and things. I really hope that we can continue to be good buddy for outing and even in studying too :P
There are always 2 sides of views for everything. Friendship is definitely one of them. I know it is quite irrational to say this thing. However, since the person is frankly a open person, i guess the person will not mind. Even if she does mind, i hope she dont take this as personal attack cause i just want to say it from my view. This is really my first time facing two friends that i know and broke up with each other. What i really know is that, i dont know how to face the two parties. I mean i dont mind sitting though to listen to your side of the story but the only person who willing express the feeling of how he felt is one person. Another party? I am totally unaware of it. I tried my best not to put any judgment to it until i hear your side of story. Sadly, i did not know anything until the recent confrontation. I dont know if your new friends are as great as you thought they are, but i am just upset that our two years of friendship is just to avoid awkwardness and dont want to burden us with your stuff. Maybe all these are my complaints but i dont really care!!
3. family and God! It is really been a while since i really prayed and everything. This year, i decided not to go cell group at all. My cell group leader has been calling and really wanna do a closure with me but i am just reluctant to do it. I am being childish. YES! But have they really thought about how we feel? We are thrown everywhere and finally to the adult cell group which after that they hope to throw us to the school cell group. It is like everywhere as if we dont belong to anything. I dont blame God but i care how they ignore our feelings and insisted that we must still attend the cell group though half of the time we dont understand what are they talking about! So, i left and decided to just be alone?
My family members are really great and helpful. Actually, they are the one who pull me though my difficult times! They are the ones who really shown me my other choices of university and supported my decisions :D Thanks for showing me the care and concern i need :D LOVE YOU :DD
All in all, i will look forward to 2012! It will be a better year filled with love, hope and laughter :DD
(gonna post my resolution on 1 jan :D and celebrate my bd on 24 jan :DD)
