Reflection on camp

Self-Reflection

i used to think tat .......... i canno do alot of things .......... lik drill and reportin ......... cuz i m small and annoying ............. and weak .......... but i learnt tat as long as i try ........... it does not matter .......... wat the result is .......... but i know tat i try b4 ................ yes ......... in tis camp i try .................... i even share abt my feelin for other ............ my thought ..................but it seem useless............ i want to b a gal who telll friends all abt her feelin and her thought ..........but it useless ........... every1 juz think tat i hate every1 and want to b likeable ............ i confess ..... i want to b friendly , fuuny cheerful , leader .......... i want .......... i want ........... but as long i have ppl who care abt mi ......... i dun care who i m ........... but ......... no 1 seem to kno tat ..................... ppl always hav to 2 side ........... im .............i m .............. nvm ..... cuz i kno i m a small part ........not a big part ...................... but no matter i play .............cuz i kno .........i dun need any 1 to look up to mi ...............but all i need is I .........is I ..........failer r ppl who look down on themselves ........... I NOT failer ............... but ......... a loner .........i may look lik i got friends to talk to ........ but actual fact .....i not .............no 1 reali wan to talk to mi ........... i m loner .....even loner than the so-call loner ............. *sob*.*sob*.......
isit reali veri diffcult to find a good friend..........
am i reali tat difficult to b with ...........