My family grew stronger everytime. I can feel it. Though we tried to cheer each other up, but there were still times we need to be alone. It's ok to cry. It's normal to cry. I guess that those were words i heard or i could say to whoever who could feel the pain.
He has always been the funniest person i ever know.
He is the one who taught me to forgive and forget.
He is the one who tried all methods to heal my skin condition.
He is the one who supports me in everything i do.
He is the one who helped me to catch dragonfly when i needed it for science project.
He is the one who will fetch me home whenever i called.
He is the one who will cut the fruit i wanted to eat.
He always knew what is on my mind.
He will always pays attentions to my need and concern.
He taught me calligraphy and chinese poem.
He is the one who marked my chinese composition.
He is the one who protected me whenever my sister bullies me.
He is the one who made jokes just to earn my smiles.
He is the one who called me "ma fan yang" or "cute cute de".
He is the one who will cook my favourite dish.
He is the one who gave me extra cash when i dun even need it.
He is the one who look up for chinese words in the dictionary when i only need it for my zuo ye.
He is the one who called all my aunties everyday just to talk to them.
He is the one who always says "Any problem? No Problem."
He ensures my anxiety and only gaves me the best he could.
He is .. . .
He is .. ..
There are so many things i could remenber he as. Though my sister kept complaining that she did not have enough time with him, i guess my only complaint would be having too much with him. I always remembered as the one who picked up my calls when i called home. The one who sit at that chair to welcome me home. The one who i worked with and the one who kept me laughing. Now, that he is gone. The house seems to be empty. There are so many people in the house but i know nothing can replace him.
We used to complain that he did not want to work. Now, we hope that he would just stay at home. Sometimes, i still hope that everything that happened was just a dream. Nothing happened. The ambulance did not come to my house. I did not attend the funeral. Everything is just as to normal. However, i knew i cant cheat myself. Facts are facts. He is gone and never come back.
There were times i grumbled that i am only 16. I should not be the one who faced such things. He has always been a healthy man with no diseases. I grumbled that why must him be the one who is taken away. I looked at those who smokes and drinks at their 60s and 70s. I complained that life is so unfair , he did not even smoke or drink and he was just gone. Life is really unfair. Maybe, somedays i will be gone just like him. Fast and without pain.
However, i cannot imagine the pain that my family will need to take. I cant.
Maybe, God has plan for him. He is susppose to be in heaven when the accident occured. But, he bargained to stay for one more year so that our family can pulled though tough times. God wants him to enjoy in heaven with him and need not suffer anymore. He will be and will look after our family just like what he always do.
There is only one thing i could tell other people. Treasure those around you. It mays seem like they will be there forever but they will not. Do take time to appreaciate them and what they did. Treat everyday like there is no tommorrow. They may be here today but gone tommorrow. There is no point to fight with your love one. Cause when they are gone, you willl be the one who regret whatever you said. Treat them well even if you are not happy with what they were doing. God must have His reason to put you all together as a family.
I knew i can stay strong.
I knew i would.
However, i know i can never forget that handsome guy tt is deep inside my heart.
I LOVE YOU, DADDY!
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