矛盾与不矛盾之间

我知道，我不可以说他是肥猪。
因为我自己也是。
但是，请不要忘记我的名言。
“就算我是肥猪，我也是世界上最美的肥猪。”

哈哈！

回到正题吧！

我在无聊时，看到这个有关星座的文章。

12星座男人最討厭哪種女人

04/20~05/20
金牛座 關鍵字： 虛榮勢利
金牛座的男人們是一群很溫文爾雅的人，他們從不輕易動怒，但他們同時也是一群很實際的人，會為自己的生活精打細算。在大多時候，女人們是很難引起他們的怒火，但有種情況比較特殊，當這個女人過於虛榮勢利，把錢看得重過一切的時候，金牛男士可就無法容忍，一旦脾氣發作，那場景非同小可，會令人毛骨悚然的。

糟了！

我是真的很虚荣势利的人！
所以，我应该放弃吧！
但是，我又看到了这个文章。

12星座女戀愛中易犯的危險心理

01/20~02/18
水瓶座 水瓶座
「獨特、另類」已成為妳生活的主流，老喜歡「不同凡響」，於是潛移默化中，妳會以為談戀愛也可以追求獨特。不是把戀愛對像鎖定那些看似古怪、神秘、另類的男生，就是逼著男友不斷給妳製造愛情奇跡。前者妳會愛得很累，因為那些人不懂憐香惜玉，不懂得愛人；後者他會很累，妳的那些要求是在給他增加精神壓力！


“不是把戀愛對像鎖定那些看似古怪、神秘、另類的男生”

哈哈！ 的确，我喜欢的他是古怪的，可能是因为是个包的关系吧！

但是，最终还是告诉自己

放弃吧！

他是永远也不会喜欢上你的!

Sorry!

Sorry!
Sorry!
Sorry!

If you read my blog and feel worried for me, i am so glad to know you that you are concern about me.

Anyway, i am okay now.

The suicidal thoughts are gone now!

REALLY!

Thanks lot for being there for me.

I love you ppl!

I love God who sent these wonderful people to me.

Goodbye to this world.

Why cry?

I thought i told myself not to cry before?

I did?

Then, why did i cry again?

It is really painful, telling myself that this is reality.

Reality is i had 3 Us for my mid year.

Reality is my father passed away.

Reality is my god-father passed away.

I kept telling myself that i am ok.

I am ok with reality.

It hit me hard but i thought i can handle it.

Today, i just realise that i could not handle these reality at all.

Who will be happy to get 3 Us?

Who will be happy that her father passed away?

Who will be happy that her god-father passed away ?

Who?

Who?

Who?

Please tell me who, k?

I will ask why is he or her so brave?

Because i know i am not.

They said that i am so strong.

I am not.

I need a shoulder to cry.

I need a time for myself.

I need help too.

I kept trying my best to hide myself.

I kept..

But i realise i cant, cause there is no reason to hide.

I cannot do the anything at all.

Practically, i am nothing at all.

Though i know that i cant say such things, i am a child of God.

He loves me.

He will not let me do sinful thing.

He will not..

However, i will repent after i do this thing.

I am so sorry.

I didnt mean to choose this road.

However, i guess this is the only way to stop the things in my life.

I only want to end this life.


Then,
no more pain,
no more suffering,
no more crying.

No mather what way i tried to end my life, please understand Lord, i am only a 17 years old girl who cannot stand her life and her family.

I didnt mean to choose this method but i guess there is no one on this earth who will support me or love me anymore.

Then, i will rather join you in heaven, knowing that you will love me.

Amen.

我还想他

就这样。。

他是慢到不行的金牛座。
我是快到不行的水瓶座。

在这场感情的圖里， 我们是不会碰面的线。

但是，为什么我还要当笨蛋？


JJ- 我还想他（改编版）
泪水将我淹没
到底谁该难过
究竟是谁放掉这段感情

我才終于明白
辦不到的承諾就成了枷鎖
現實中幸福永遠缺貨

請告訴他
我不愛他
笑著難過
自我懲罰想終止這
一切掙扎橫了心說真心謊話

別告訴他
我還想他恨總比愛容易放下
當 淚水堵住了胸口
就讓沉默
代替所有回答

我才終于明白
辦不到的承諾就成了枷鎖
現實中幸福永遠缺貨

請告訴他
我不愛他
笑著難過
自我懲罰想終止這
一切掙扎橫了心說真心謊話

別告訴他
我還想他恨總比愛容易放下
當淚水堵住了胸口
就讓沉默 代替所有回答

我不愛
我不痛
我不懂我的心早已掏空
真心話言不由衷

請告訴他
我不愛他
笑著難過
自我懲罰想終止這
一切掙扎橫了心說真心謊話

別告訴他
我還想他
恨總比愛容易放下
當淚水堵住了胸口
就讓沉默 代替所有回答

別告訴他
我還想他
就讓沉默 代替所有回答

WOW day!

I went home early today though i wanted to stay back and studied in school. However, i went to toa payoh library to finish up my math tuitorial. This is seriously the WOW part of my day. I met two incidents which is like super WOW.

1st incident: Weird aunite asking for money.

To be truthful, my sister is the one who met this auntie. She was despositing her money while she met the auntie. The auntie saw that she "had" a lot of notes and asked for some. OH MY! Can you believe it? This actually happens in Singapore and at the ATM machine. This is like super direct and ridiculas.

2nd incident : A man folding incense paper in the LIBRARY.

This is even worse. I walked in the library, expecting my day to be better. In the end i saw this guy who use the library table to fold incense paper. My sister didnt see that and wanted to take the seats beside him. I walked away and almost told the whole library about how ridiculas to fold incense paper in the library. The table is for people to read and do their work. Or maybe, that is his work la.. HAHA!


RIDICULAS DAY! Hope that tml will be a better day!

Mid year!!!!

I know that crying is useless...
I know that I cant do anything to change my mid year result...
I know that I really did badly for mid year..
I know ..
I know..

I know a lot of things but i dun know what to do. I am really very disappointed with my result. Though i truly only spend two weeks studying for mid year, but is my standard that bad? I started to wonder whether i should be in JC? Is it the right choice to be in lep? Is it the right combination of subjects ?

There are just too many questions in my mind. I knew there is only one answer, God. He had a plan for me. I will follow it. These are just challenges in my life. I am gonna face it with Him. I knew that i am not alone at all. I had Him. So, i decided i am not going to be a loser who just cried for the result and do nothing about it.

I am going to STUDY MUG and do all things to make my pass my promos and get to J2. With Him, i had nothing to fear. He let me into nanyang not for any reason. SO, i dun believe my result is truly that bad. I am gonna stay in library everyday! I am gonna find the teacher for consultation until they are scared of me! I am gonna to mug like mad!

The time given is so short. However, i knew that in Him, all things are possible!


AMEN!

To darling!

DARLING!
你在哪里？为什么我找不到你？
我CALL和SMS你好几次，你却没有回答！
你不见了吗？ 还是我的电话有问题？ 还是你在躲我？
我只知道明天要看电影，但是，我不知道与你约的时间和地带。这么办？

所以，这首歌是送给你的，但我KUSONG了它。

我比想象中想你-JS

飞的越远越看不见
你阳光下灿烂的笑脸
在天和海之间
那条界限
慢慢地走远
你曾经是我的地平线
你有没有一点想念
我们一起前天的MSN
有种恋的感觉
在心里面
那么的强烈
而这一切好象只是昨天

我才发现我比想象中想你
只是一时不小心错过了你
每当夜深人静
我诚实的分析我自己
还是不可否认地

我比想象中爱你
浪花掠过沙滩边际 （海风就像你的呼吸）
我又看见我们的脚印 （那仿佛是回忆的痕迹）
如果遇见幸福的机率有千万分之一
不顾一切也要找回你
我才发现我比想象中想你
只是一时不小心错过了你

每当夜深人静
我诚实的分析我自己
总会从梦中惊醒
还是不可否认地

我比想象中爱你
噢噢~~ 终于发现我比想象中想你
只是一时不小心错过了你

每当夜深人静
我诚实的分析我自己
总会从梦中惊醒 还是不可否认地

我比想象中想你