END OF A LEVEL~ :D

HAHA~
I am really happy today :D
Can you imagine all the studies and worries that i had for past few months are all GONE~ :D
HAPPY TTM!

I hope my skin will get better, though it is still very red. But, who cares? At least A level is over! Time to find job, prepare for prom and learn to drive... AND maybe find my prince too~ HAHA! Sounds like a despo but i guess my friends will understand me :D

I just wanna blog about my joys and my feelings today!

I am really glad to be in nyjc with this group of friends. They really taught me how to study and have fun at the same time. Now that i no need to sms them whether we are gonna study tmr, i kind of miss it. HAHA~ Even though there are much to look forward after A levels, but i really miss our mugging time :D those time that we crap and bully me :( HAHA~ (P.S : it doesnt mean that i enjoyed the bullying hor.. i am not like pervert or weirdo who enjoys being bullied.) looking at those books that are pilling on my table, it's time to THROW THEM AWAY :D Oh man~ it is gonna be fun to throw books :D

What do i want to say?

Well, i dun know whether i should say this or not.

But my friends should understand that i can't really keep sercet or things to myself. I mean i will still unfair for her but still agree with what you all said loh. I am confused. This is really difficult! I used to think that people are simple and actions are taken easily. This is the reason why i am shocked when you all kept saying that her actions are planned. Haiz.. Isnt leading that kind of life tough? I mean everyday, you woke up and tell yourself that you need to pretend to be somebody. TOUGH MAN! I will rather not wake up, cause i am so afriad that someone else will realise my true colour~ Leading that kind of life is fake, i dun really think anyone can survived with two faces everyday loh! In my heart, i truly pity you. BUT~ SORRRY~ I am still afraid of that awkward time! :(( I am really tired of holding your hand when everyone asks me to let go. I am so sorry!

Other than her, i wanna blog about someone else too. People from different world are hard to connect together. I understand, therefore i dun force it. Feelings are wierd to me. I dun think i really treasure it until i lose it. I like the feeling of being loved. I llke the feeling that someone cares for me. I like the feeling that someone thought for me. Sorry if i am being too selfish but i like the feeling that someone loves me more than i love that someone. So, i will move on to find someone who loves me more than i love that someone. HAHA~ it is kind of bad for that someone but i like it! HAHA~ Anyway, the main point is things that are not fated, will not be together.




你有没有试过一个人在夜里独自哭泣？
我试过。
你有没有曾被一个很爱很爱你的人抛弃？
我受伤过。
你有没有在无助的时候，躲在一个角落？
我害怕过。

因为，
拥有这些经验，
我担心，我犹豫，我胆小，
我不愿在被这样伤害了。

我的痛，
我的泪，
我的心，
你了解吗？

第四回

面具，

是一种伪装。

她的面具，

是一种假装。


第四回


为什么？


我知道她不是她，却仍决定帮她。
我帮她实现她的复仇计划。
接近她，对她好，让她爱上我，然后在抛弃她。


这么简单却伤人的计划，我同意了。


为什么？


在那善良的面孔，藏着不畏人知的一面。
我发现了，并没有醒来。爱就有这股能耐，能够让人忘了人性。


她真的很可怜。我却不能去同情。
我的所做所为是对的吗？我不知道，也不想知道。
只要最终能得到她的爱，就是值得的。

矛盾

当我说可以的时候，不一定是可以。
当我说不要的时候，不一定是不要。

我承认我很难搞。（虽然有人说我很像一本书一样，容易猜到我在想什么。）
因为有时，我都不知道我要的是什么。

很矛盾，
但
那就是
我！

哈哈~

我刚刚想到一个很复杂的感情故事。

女生A喜欢男生B，但男生B喜欢女生C。
女生C是男生D的女朋友。
男生D是女生A的哥哥。

所以，
诺我是女生A，我的情敌是我的哥哥的女朋友。
诺我是男生B，我爱上了一个有夫之妇。
诺我是女生C，我会莫名其妙地被弟妹讨厌，却还有男性的好朋友。
诺我是男生D，我希望我不知道我的妹妹所喜欢的人喜欢我的女朋友，这样一来，我就不需要想太多。

如果是你，你选择做什么？