APRIL SIMPLY SUCKS

Like my title, april simply sucks!

I didn't receive any uni letter. I feel damm sucky about it. Sometimes, i wonder will it be better if i didn't go to JC. However, if i didn't go to JC, i will not know my passion for economics and miss out a lot of great people that i knew in JC. In any case, what is done is done. I will just pray for the best. I had already applied for SIM. Some of my friends think that i applied too early but if i don't apply now, i will have to wait till next year. I don't want to work for so long, i rather go and study!! My family even wanted me to go and apply another two australia university. Anyway, i called and they said that with my grade ( looking at H2s only) , i will definitely get in. So, i should just wait for my application for University of London first then see whether i need to apply for another two unis. Kind of kiasu but i am doing what i like which is ECONS :DD It is so much better than just filfulling the path of going to uni but in a course that i don't like. "Do what you want. what you like" That is what my sisters kept telling me. They said that it's ok that the school fee is ex or i need to study longer. As long as i am doing what i like, all other things doesn't matter. GREAT FAMILY rite? :D

April is a like a shopping month. As long i didn't receive any news on that day, i will need to buy something like food or clothes to console myself. HAHA~ So practically, i brought many stuffs over this whole month. I brought three dresses, bracelet, shoes and many many more~ I feel like a shopaholic and i like it :D

Work is fun as usual, especially when i am doing part-time now. :D Work for lesser hours and earn more :D I am thinking of getting another part-time but still losing that movtivation to find one. HAHA~ I guess i should just be contented with one jobs then.

Friends? I really have no ideas about it. I talked to my family and other friends. They gave me different different advice. Sometimes, i don't even know who should i listen to. Maybe one of them is right, when i don't feel good, i should not tell anyone, just bury it somewhere will do. However, what are friends if we don't share our unhappiness? It will be just a group of people wearing a smile masks and kept laughing. I am good at pretending that i am happy, however it is unfair to those who i really treasured. I can put on a smile to entertain the world but the world will never put on a smile to entertain me. Unfair but true. Anyway, i came to this conclusion, i can't be your perfect friend but i can be perfectly me. I am who i am, if you can't accept it then just get out of my life. You can talk all you want about me, pretending that you know all about my life but the truth is you never bother to know me or even concern about my life. So, you just continue your way of living and i will be on my way to mine. THANK YOU!

I believed friends should never listen what others said about you and judge you. They see what you did and believed that you are what they see. In this case, i felt bad towards someone. She actually didn't do much but after lots of talking or discussions, she got a image of a bad person. I felt bad that i judge her based on what others told me. I should just continue to believe in what i see in her. Haiz.. If life is going to be like this, so be it.

All in all, i am quite excited for my uni life. Actually, i brought a lot of dresses for it :D So, it's better to be economics course and a good uni then :D