CHRISTMAS!

YEAH! This is my 282 post!!! HAHA! I am just being random~

HAHA! What should i post today? I really have no idea. LOL.. I wanted to post this post because of CLARON! haha~

Since it is christmas, i shall just wish everyone MERRY CHRISTMAS~

Had a very special christmas eve yesterday,
darling and i were at the airport.

We spent the whole night doing homework ( practically not the WHOLE night la.. cuz we spent around two hours gossipping. )

YA.. That is my christmas eve.

Two lonely girls
One good friendship
With tons of homework..

OUR CHRISTMAS EVE TIL CHRISTMAS~

LOL..

Anyway, let's make this post more touching instead of me telling everyone what i did for christmas eve~

THANKSGIVING TIME!!

To: God

Thanks for accompanying me though my thick and thin. I really want to thank You for letting me knowing you. It is You who changed my life and makes me feel happy everyday. I know that i can always count on You no matter what happens. This year has been tough but i know with you around, nothing is impossible.

THANKS!

To: Dad

I really miss you! Though i kept pretending to be strong but there are still times that i will break down and cry. This really shows how much i need you to be in my life. WAIT. My dad don't read english. 爸爸， 我好想您！ 生活真的不能没有您！不过，我知道您天天都在我身边，用着您的爱在看着我，在保护着我。 我要学会坚强，学会不哭，学着在寂寞的夜里想你，在平日也想你。

谢谢！

To: Family ( Mummy, Big sis, bro, shufang sis, ri sis, bao)

Thanks for being there for me. JC year 1 has been tough but with you all, i 拼 了. Thanks for giveing me support when i need it. Thanks for waiting for me when my training ends late. Thanks for giving me adivce when i need it. Thanks for driving me around when i need a ride. Thanks for cooking my favourite food. Thanks for understanding me and giving me space when i truly need it. Thanks for toleranting my temper and gong zhu bing!

THANKS WITH MY KISSES!

To: Spiritual Family ( Miss Seah, hui hui, ai kit, cheryl, amanda, phyllis)

This year is totally different from last year. All of us are in different schools and it is really difficult to meet each other. I really thanks God that He let us have fellowship time. I want to thank all of you! It is great to know you all as you all are support that God has given to me. I know that i can always sms you all or call you all when i need support or help. :)

THANKS!

To: Li ying

Though we didnt meet to celebrate our birthday this year, i promise that we will meet next year k? Thanks for being there for me. I know i can call you anytime i like. I know you will always lend me a listening year. STOP eating too much k? I dun want to eat a 50 plus kg of liying next year. HAHA!

MUACK!

To: Clique IV ( Christy, blossy, wanlin, emily, isobel)

We are in different schools but we still make that effort to meet each other and celebrate each other birthday! I thank you all for that effort. Thanks for meeting up with me and update me about you! I thank you all for the extra gossip and "knowledge"! HAHA! It is because of you all, that causes me to miss my secondary school years. It is because of you all, that causes me to think that FRIENDS are still better than anything. ( i really mean anything :))

MUACK! MUACK!

To: Clique 4 ( Darling, Honey, Yaya)

It is really great to know you all. I love to study with you all and gossip together. I enjoyed all the outings and thanks for giving me my birthday presents when i DEMAND for it. HAHA! I know i am evil la~ Thanks for understanding my gong zhu ping and let me have what i want. I know i am very weird everyday but thanks for cracking those jokes to make my day. :) Let's JIA YOU for nx year and make nx year a GREAT year.

MUACK! MUACK! MUACK!

To: FLOORBALL girls team ( laura, shanmei, queenie, syakirah,kin ing, wanlin, alison, serene, ying ying, kai ying, corliss, man san, jing pei, hui ling, zi ning, hui syen, yvonne, si li, clarissa, shu ting)

YEAH! We are a great team! This is my first time being in a team sport. I really thank you all for training time WOW to me. Though i may complain a lot, but with all you all training with me, i guess there is nothing i can complain liao :) HAHA! I am really blur on court and even off court. So, thanks for understanding that side of me. I love all your weird jokes and outing or even purely dinner. Thanks for giving me advices on you know what and supporting me :) Thanks for winning that championship! I am proud to be in such a wonderful team. Let's strive on and become the BEST team in A division. :))

MUACK X4!!!!

To: 0935 (darling, honey, yaya, sam, gracious, van, abi, jer, joel, jia mu,qi wei, mabel, tricia, nana, ger,mei zhen, jun ling, siming, bk, jerrold, fu hua, alice)

GREAT CLASS! Thanks for studying with me! Thanks for taking care of me! I love to attend lectures and going out with you all. A group of weird ppl! I love it! Though we had different combinations of subjects but we made a great class! We really prove lots of ppl wrong. It will be better next year! We will be the top ten class! YEAH!

MUACK X5 !!!!!

To: LTC group LUPIN! (renkai, yi da, christy, shuang yu, hui ming, adrian, joel, zuo yi, chee how, jonnas)

It is only FOUR days but i feel like i know you all for years! Thanks for supporting during the camp. Thanks for taking care of me during the camp. I know i always looked so low but i am actually quite high ( Somehow la~) I am so sad that i cant go for the outing but i hope that there is another outing k?

MUACK X6!!!!!!

To: LEP taiwan trip PPL! ( You know what? there are 30 plus ppl.. It will really kill me to write all the names.)

Anyway, I am happy to know all of you. This is the first time i enjoyed a school trip. I love taiwan but i love it because of all of you. It is you all who made this trip wonderful and memorable. I miss the trip but i also miss you all. Five different schools, one country and only 15 days. FOREVER experience.

MUACK X7!!!!!!!


YEAH! Finally, i am done! Thanks X100000000000000000000000000times!

風箏與風

歌名: 風箏與風


演唱: Twins
附註: 松日廣告主題曲
作曲: 伍樂城, 編曲: 伍樂城
監製: , 填詞: 林夕


沒有燈　背影怎可上路
如沒雲　天空都不覺高
我與他　若似天生一對多麼好
單手怎可以抱　我怕在平地跌倒


＊誰伴我　冒險跳下愛河
　誰都要一對　即使手挽手出了錯
　想多姿多彩怎會一個
　又哪可一個＊


＃當風箏遇上風　即使快樂的痛
　能能乘著狂風　天空中愛得英勇
　有了他就算哭　仍然流露著笑容
　當風箏沒有風　一顆心也都很重
　誰能來做微風　不必管我的輕重
　冥冥中遇上他　擦過愛的天空
　倦極也不痛＃


有痛苦　都只因擁有吧
會枯萎　都只因收過花
有個他　未算天生一對都不差
逼真的相愛過　那眼淚還未算假


REPEAT＊＃


如何地痛　仍然學會英勇
哭過　更寬容　他願意抱擁
不用計較輕重　有誰　這樣勇


REPEAT＃


不管　吹得多痛　狂風裡　也活得英勇
若能遇上所愛　我會不分輕重
不怕　沿路跌碰
誰怕痛　有他支撐跌不痛
有風箏　便有風

这是一个怎样的世界？

一开始， 我无力地过着每一天。

最后，我终于病了。

然后，我也倒下来了。



我不知道有没有人发现。

我不知道有没有人知道。

我不知道有没有人理会。



我累了。


你是空氣 但是好聞勝過了空氣

你是陽光 但是也能照進半夜裡

水能載舟 也能煮粥 餵飽了生命



如果世界就是这样简单的话，那就好了。

但是事实并不是如此。



看起来幸福的人，不一定是开心的。

看起来不满足的人，不一定是难过的。



或许， 我们都活在一个虚拟的世界。



大家都喜欢戴着善良的面具。

大家都爱上假装这一套服装。



武装着自己，过着每一的生活。



在武装的背后，是否住着一个真正的自己？

谁也不知道。



我真的累了。



我不想再去揭穿另一个面具。

难道诚实地过着每一天也是一种罪？



伪装，隐藏，躲避，

有没有人真的能靠这些而活一辈子？

haiz..

Didn update my blog for a very loooooooooooooooong time. So, i decided to update it today even though i am suppose to memorise my script.

By the way, qing shu is written by me and unknown is written by wanlin's friend. Hope you all like our poems! Though i still think mine not good enough, i will try harder then.

Super busy with PW. Other than PW, school is like nothing else to look forward to. Haiz.. You will know what i mean.

I decided to be truthful to myself. OK! You all are right. I still like him. So what? What else can i do? Stone, wait and confess? I want to do none of them. I will rather .... I also dun know. Haiz.. I am totally in confuse state now. There is nothing else i can do right?

I dun like to look at him from a distance.
I dun like to not to him.
I dun like to stare blankly at him.
I dun like to not care about him.
I dun like to ignore him.
I dun like to not talk about him.
I dun like to ...

LOL.. i think i am being too truthful liao. When people ask why i like him, i will just say i dun know. I really dun know why i like him. I only know i cant stop liking him. HAIZ..

Life is just so troublesome. There are things that u work hard for but you just cant get the result you want. I am a hardworking girl. I will try my best and grab hold of the things i believe in. However, things always turn up differently. I could not grab hold of everything. I only got two hands. When both hands are filled, i just couldnt hold any more things.

Maybe, this is just part of God's plan. He wants me to wait. I will wait then. For i know, God always has a better plan for me.

AND

I will WAIT..

AHH!! STRESS!!!

STRESS!
STRESS!
STRESS!

this is totally stressful week!

not because of PW!

but because of something else!

AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!


PROMO RESULT SOOOOONNN!


PROMOTE?

OR RETAIN?


AHHHHH!!

love poems!!

1。《情书》

我将心放进信封里，
用了我的情封起来，
把思念化成张邮票，
开心送到爱情邮筒。

真希望邮差不会忙，
这样的话，
我的爱，
今天就会送到你的面前。

2。《unknown》

夜深人静无身影，
翻来覆去仍清醒，
心中一直在想你，
思念随我上屋顶，
情不自禁哼首歌，
情曲里，
惟有你到底在哪里，
何时能藏在我心里？

WHICH ONE IS BETTER?
PLS VOTE FOR UR FAVOURITE POEM!
SIMPLY LEAVE A TAG AT THE TAGBOARD INDICATING UR CHOICE!
COMMENT IF U WANT!
THE AUTHORS WILL BE REVEAL AFTER PROMO!


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VOTE!

用一秒钟爱上一个人，然后再付出一生去忘记，水瓶座就是这样的试验品。

用一秒钟爱上一个人，然后再付出一生去忘记，水瓶座就是这样的试验品。

12星座男生最容易上谁的当？

白羊座男生最容易上 - 处女座女生的当

处女座的人讲话很诚恳，她讲话的热心态度是一般人装不来的，常识很丰富，平常也很热心帮助人家，常常会给牡羊座很多建议，牡羊座就会很容易相信处女女。

金牛座男生最容易上 - 水瓶座女生的当

水瓶座的女生可以把金牛座的男生玩弄在股掌之间，水瓶座的魅力就在于冷和热之间的落差，可以感受到她的热情，可是外表又看起来冷冰冰，而且又有一点阴阳怪气，太正派的人引不起金牛座的注意，而且他一下子就可以分辨出真假，这时怪怪的水瓶女就引起金牛男的兴趣了。

双子座男生最容易上 - 天秤座女生的当

天秤座是一个很会安慰人，很友善的星座，双子座有时候很阳光，有时候很阴暗，而天秤座很容易接触到双子座的阴暗面，所以天秤座很容易就了解双子座的全貌，再来就是要看天秤女要不要害双子男而已。

巨蟹座男生最容易上 - 狮子座女生的当

狮子座的女生只要遇到巨蟹座的男生就是忍不住想欺负，说不出为什么。

狮子座男生最容易上 - 牡羊座女生的当

牡羊座的女生会把事情分析的很清楚，而且很会用煽动的语言去激狮子座的男生，表现出来的魄力甚至感觉比狮子男还强势，于是输人不输阵的狮子男很容易就被牡羊女的激将法得逞了。
处女座男生最容易上 - 双鱼座女生的当

双鱼座的女生聪明，处女座的男生在感情上反而比较笨拙，当处女男要讨对女生欢心时，整个人就像笨蛋一样，对方说什么他都相信，而双鱼女遇到像白痴处女男会觉得不骗很可惜。

天秤座男生最容易上 - 天蝎座女生的当

天蝎座的女生情绪表现说话的语气都是很重口味的，她一步一步的引导表现会让天秤男信以为真，甚至让他以为天蝎女对自己已经五体投地，到最后发现不是如此时就会分外受伤。

天蝎座男生最容易上 - 双子座女生的当

双子座的女生可以让天蝎座的男生目不暇给、花样百出，而乖的女生天蝎男会觉得没意思，像双子座这么难捉摸的女生才会让天蝎男觉得有挑战性，因为他很有自信，可是结果一定是战败在双子女的手下。

射手座男生最容易上 - 魔羯座女生的当

射手座其实是非常小心，精明的不得了，魔羯座的女生属于临危不乱型，而且当她要欺骗对方时，一定是做好万全的准备，而且很清楚自己的程度如何，于是是射手男常常在魔羯座看似很真诚的付出之下松懈了心防。

魔羯座男生最容易上 - 金牛座女生的当

魔羯座是不想吃亏型，而金牛座更胜魔羯座一筹，金牛座公事公办，所有证据一定会留下，务实的金牛座不会随便丢任何东西，于是魔羯男的亏就吃定了。

水瓶座男生最容易上 - 巨蟹座女生的当

巨蟹座的女生一开始的很像苦情花，可是跟水瓶男在一起之后一定会占上风，因为水瓶男一旦跟对方认真之后，只要对方跟他要，他一定都会想办法给，可是巨蟹女即使要到了想要的东西，可是只要遇到了更好的对象，她说走就走，头也不会回。

双鱼座男生最容易上 - 金牛座女生的当

金牛座的女生很务实，而双鱼男会散发只要对方开口他就会给的讯息，这时金牛座就会很想要从他身上得到很多好处，而双鱼男这时只有挨打的份。

Snow - Red Hot Chili Peppers

Snow - Red Hot Chili Peppers - Lyrics


Come to decide that the things that I tried
Were in my life just to get high on
When I sit alone come get a little known
But I need more than myself this time
Step from the road to the sea to the sky
And I do believe it, we rely on
When I lay it on come get to play it on
All my life to sacrafice
Hey oh listen what I say oh, I got your
Hey oh now listen what I say oh
When will I know that I really can't go
To the well once more time to decide on
When it's killing me, when will I really see
All that I need to look inside
Come to believe that I better not leave
Before I get my chance to ride
When it's killing me, what do I really need
All that I need to look inside
Hey oh listen what I say oh, come back and
Hey oh look at what I say oh
The more I see the less I know
The more I like to let it go...hey oh, whoa
Deep beneath the cover of another perfect wonder
Where it's so white as snow
Privately divided by a world so undecided
And there's nowhere to go
In between the cover of another perfect wonder
And it's so white as snow
Running through a field where all my tracks will
Be concealed and there is nowhere to go
When to descend to amend for a friend
All the channels that have broken down
Now you bring it up, I'm gonna ring it up
Just to hear you sing it out
Step from the road to the sea to the sky
And I do believe what we rely on
When I lay it on, come get to play it on
All my life to sacrifice
Hey oh listen what I say oh, I got your
Hey oh listen what I say oh
The more I see the less I know
The more I'd like to let it go...hey oh whoa
Deep beneath the cover of another perfect wonder
Where it's so white as snow
Privately divided by a world so undecided
And there's nowhere to go
In between the cover of another perfect wonder
Where it's so white as snow
Running through the field where all my tracks
Will be concealed and there is nowhere to go
I said hey hey yeah, oh yeah tell my love now
Hey hey yeah, oh yeah tell my love now
Deep beneath the cover of another perfect wonder
Where it's so white as snow
Privately divided by a world so undecided
And there's nowhere to go
In between the cover of another perfect wonder
Where it's so white as snow
Running through the field where all my tracks
Will be concealed and there is nowhere to go
I said hey hey yeah, oh yeah tell my love now
Hey hey yeah,

Happy shalalala

OMG!

IT's 09/09/09!!!!

HAHA!

I AM SO HAPPY!

SOOOO HAPPY!

HAHAHA!

It is a meaningful mugging session!

HAHA!


XD


LOL

人

人，又少了一个。。。

life

this is a weird life.

this is a really weird life.

somehow you will gain something and lose something at the same time

why cant i have it both at the same time?

i know i am a greedy girl.

but what is wrong to have all my friends

i cant call all my friends everyday

i cant sms them and ask how are they do

i pray for them

i dun wan to lose them

but life is just like tt

i gain new friendship and lost the old one

is old not strong enough

or is it the new one needs too much effort to handle?

i can no longer control what is going in my life. though i knew i can mug now.

i will mug then.

i dun wan to care abt other stuff anymore.

i dun care.

i dun wan.

so pls dun disturb me!

成长了

成长了，

是一回事，

多了一点好事，

也多了一点坏事。

究竟发生了什么事，

才导致我们之间这么多事？

我们又是什么时候出了这种事，

还是因为一开始没有处理好而出事？

我们到底还有没有地救？ 这件事也就只有他能知道。

Dear God,

I pray for your presence to be with me, my family and friends.
Lord, i pray for your presence to be with them and calm them down that may they make the right decision in life.
I also want to pray for your protection for them, Lord that whatever they do, they will be protected by you.
I cannot always be with them.
But i know, Lord is always with them.
I just want everyone around me to be happy and enjoy their life.
I know you have a plan for everyone and i hope that all these things that are happening are part of your plan too! Please Lord, i do want to see them suffer, i really want them to be them.
I do not wish to see them making the wrong choice.
Lord, please please Help them!
This is my cry to you, Lord.
This is my prayer from me to them, Lord.
Lord, help them and me!
If anything i can do to help them, please Lord, let me know and i will be part of your great plan.

Thank you, Lord!

Amen.

水瓶座除了需要一个深爱自己包容一切的人以外，还需要一个心理医生。

水瓶


几乎每个水瓶座的心底都有着一段刻骨铭心人间记忆，一个永远无法忘记的背影。
那也许只是极其短暂的两情相悦，只是一种单恋，或只是一种只存在于虚幻空间。
一切看起来是那么平静，那么和谐。


没有惊天动地，没有海誓山盟，没有花前月下，没有浪漫，没有誓言，没有温度。水瓶座的理智和冷漠，注定了任何感情永无燃点。


水瓶座不容易喜欢上一个人。有人说水瓶座对伴侣的要求太高，其实并非这样，水瓶座注重的是感觉。只是那么轻描淡写的一眼，那个人已经吸引了水瓶的所有注意力，从此目光便无法转移。
用一秒钟爱上一个人，然后再付出一生去忘记，水瓶座就是这样的试验品。
但几乎所有的水瓶都会否认在自己的身上发生一见钟情，因为一向自视清高，承认爱上一个人这钟事似乎是在侮辱自己的智商。


更多的时候是因为，连自己都没发现已经爱上。水瓶座很多时候对于感情反应非常迟钝，迟钝到每次都是最后的知情者。有时容易出现弄不清自己的感觉，不清楚自己想做什么，觉得迷惘。


在对方没有非常明确地表示感情时会退怯，觉得爱情是两厢情愿，不想勉强对方。
显得很被动，忽冷忽热，犹豫不决，极其矛盾。在没有完全确定前，决不轻易付出感情，因为怕失去。也许是缺乏安全感，也许是对自己的保护，也可以算作是一种自私。
一般水瓶座的好朋友都是经过很长世间的考察的，不仅仅是几年，而是十几年。一旦被水瓶座当作好朋友的，会赴汤蹈火掏心掏肺。
在公车上，街边，商场，水瓶老是认错人。在茫茫人海中，始终在寻找一个熟悉的身影，直到产生幻觉。


这一刻，水瓶座突然很想痛哭流涕，因为突然发现自己几近疯狂的爱上一个人，失去了理智，失去了自我。这种突如其来的感觉，很恐惧，很无助。
水瓶座不喜欢这种感觉，因为不知该如何面对。要让水瓶座主动去追逐，是件异常困难的事，在水瓶座的世界里无法承受拒绝，就是这么脆弱，无论表面上看来是多么的坚强。
水瓶座在人前总是一幅无忧无虑没心没肝的样子，不想别人看见自己的悲伤，那样会有不安全的感觉，总是在无人的地方暗自落泪。


算了，还是放在心里吧。既不用尴尬的表白然后遭到拒绝，又不会相爱容易相处难的惨烈分手。这样很好，没人看出来，不至于太没面子。可以继续貌似潇洒。
但是，不同了。尽管水瓶座装着多么不在乎，看都不看一眼。可是对方说的每句话都从耳朵进去，没见出来。对方提的任何过分的要求，水瓶座统统照单全收精心尽力，决对不会有半个不字。完全成为一个爱情的奴隶，脸上还装酷无表情，整个死要面子活受罪。


这种情况下，如果对方使点阴谋诡计，刻意疏远避而不见或是视而不见，电话不接或是哼哈敷衍等等，水瓶会给整疯了，开始会想是什么自己地方做错了，说错话了，然后拉下面子主动讨好试探。不用多，碰壁两次，水瓶座就会有自知之明了，不会再去想是为什么会这样，也不想知道了。心里会想，原来是对方讨厌自己，不想见到自己。明白之后，就是绝对的安静了。
这还没完，过了一段日子。对方如果突然又改变态度，水瓶座竟然能既往不咎问也不问，殷勤依旧，完全没有尊严可谈。只要能和对方开心的在一起，过去不重要，未来也不重要，面子不重要，金钱不重要，时间不重要，自己也不重要。
天平失衡，感情重重的压在心底，自己却飘在了半空。太在乎对方，迷失了自我，幸福也变得虚无。


自己都不爱，谁还会珍惜。
水瓶座一旦付出，便是彻底，不可收回。
感情投入的越多越是伤的重。
最擅长的是难为自己。不想对方难过，只好让自己难过。总是认为自己有超乎寻常的承受力，把自己想得太坚强，而把别人想得太脆弱。不知道，受伤的其实是自己，只是不知道如何表现出来。
爱，这个字对水瓶座来说，太沉重珍贵了，无法用语言诠释。一旦说出口，犹如远古的文物，被发掘出土暴露于空气中，变得面目全非，失去本来的价值。
所以，不轻易说。


只需一次，水瓶座便把一生的精力耗尽，只因执著，便落得伤痕累累。那段感情如强酸腐蚀着那颗麻木的心，穿了一个洞，再也无法弥补。时间是世界上最有力的矬子，把空洞的毛边渐渐抚平，不再搁人。每当寒风吹过，犹闻隐约凄凉的萧萧声，似挽歌。
只需一次，水瓶座便不再幻想，于是狠狠将自己摔碎，拒绝熔化拼凑。因为怕熔了记忆，怕熔了那个远远的背影，怕熔了自己千年的期盼。
之后，水瓶座依然谈笑风生，依然开朗豁达，继续着一段接一段的新感情，重复着一切，因为无法承受寂寞。


人们都说水瓶花心，见一个爱一个，水瓶座会哈哈一笑，说“哪有？冤啊！”。其实心里在滴着血，脸上却得笑的灿烂，安慰自己“我是谁啊！哪会那么弱呢！”
有人说水瓶座太冷酷太自私，自以为了不起。可是谁又了解，水瓶座的心，容量很小，只能有一个，且不具修改性。除了那个人，其他所有自动归为一种程序。


因为无法虚伪，所以甜言蜜语都吝啬给予。因为天真，所以至死之前仍在等待。因为没有勇气，所以眼睁睁放手真爱无能为力。
当看到一个瓶子在疯狂地快乐或悲伤时，请千万不要被迷惑，水瓶总是不由自主地交错操纵着快乐与悲伤。其实并不像看到的那么快乐，同样的，也不像看到的那么悲伤。只是悲伤时，喜欢带上快乐的面具，而当水瓶快乐时，悲伤又不肯轻易放过。
只有真正懂得水瓶座的人，才能看见眼底那一缕似有似无的哀伤，才能明白是什么让水瓶如此的义无反顾，是什么让水瓶变得如此忽冷忽热捉摸不定，才能体会水瓶的坚强只是竭力掩饰的脆弱。


星相上说，水瓶座往往不被所爱的人珍惜。我想，是为什么呢？也许答案就在心中，只是水瓶座的本性不愿承认而已。
水瓶座除了需要一个深爱自己包容一切的人以外，还需要一个心理医生。

那一年

那一年，他说他喜欢长头发的女生。
那一年，我留了长头发。
隔一年，我却剪了。

长头发似乎是一段新的开始，而短头发是一段的结束。
还是，
短头发是新的开始，而长头发是要结束的暗语。

自己现在就是那个羽毛。

我还在学习。。
慢慢懂了 其实失恋是一种力量
因为孤独让人可以回想


王心凌—羽毛
(Music)
多么沮丧 成人世界并不像童话
王子公主很少喜剧收场
不是只要够勇敢够善良
就会有仙女帮忙实现愿望
慢慢懂了 其实失恋是一种力量
因为孤独让人可以回想
是在哪边该下车却没下
才到了一个不想到的地方
有时候爱是粉红的羽毛
谁捧着都有微笑的眼角
才看他在手心沉沉的睡着
一起风 又醒了 那么轻飘飘的走掉
我觉得我是雪白的羽毛
向往着超越自己的渺小
成为寂寞城堡关不了
能带给人幸福的青鸟
(Music)
慢慢懂了 其实失恋是一种力量
因为孤独让人可以回想
是在哪边该下车却没下
才到了一个不想到的地方
有时候爱是粉红的羽毛
谁捧着都有微笑的眼角
才看他在手心沉沉的睡着
一起风 又醒了 那么轻飘飘的走掉
我觉得我是雪白的羽毛
向往着超越自己的渺小
成为寂寞城堡关不了
能带给人幸福的青鸟
(Music)
有时候爱是粉红的羽毛
谁捧着都有微笑的眼角
才看他在手心沉沉的睡着
一起风 又醒了 那么轻飘飘的走掉
我觉得我是雪白的羽毛
向往着超越自己的渺小
成为寂寞城堡关不了
能带给人幸福的青鸟
(Music)
END

矛盾与不矛盾之间

我知道，我不可以说他是肥猪。
因为我自己也是。
但是，请不要忘记我的名言。
“就算我是肥猪，我也是世界上最美的肥猪。”

哈哈！

回到正题吧！

我在无聊时，看到这个有关星座的文章。

12星座男人最討厭哪種女人

04/20~05/20
金牛座 關鍵字： 虛榮勢利
金牛座的男人們是一群很溫文爾雅的人，他們從不輕易動怒，但他們同時也是一群很實際的人，會為自己的生活精打細算。在大多時候，女人們是很難引起他們的怒火，但有種情況比較特殊，當這個女人過於虛榮勢利，把錢看得重過一切的時候，金牛男士可就無法容忍，一旦脾氣發作，那場景非同小可，會令人毛骨悚然的。

糟了！

我是真的很虚荣势利的人！
所以，我应该放弃吧！
但是，我又看到了这个文章。

12星座女戀愛中易犯的危險心理

01/20~02/18
水瓶座 水瓶座
「獨特、另類」已成為妳生活的主流，老喜歡「不同凡響」，於是潛移默化中，妳會以為談戀愛也可以追求獨特。不是把戀愛對像鎖定那些看似古怪、神秘、另類的男生，就是逼著男友不斷給妳製造愛情奇跡。前者妳會愛得很累，因為那些人不懂憐香惜玉，不懂得愛人；後者他會很累，妳的那些要求是在給他增加精神壓力！


“不是把戀愛對像鎖定那些看似古怪、神秘、另類的男生”

哈哈！ 的确，我喜欢的他是古怪的，可能是因为是个包的关系吧！

但是，最终还是告诉自己

放弃吧！

他是永远也不会喜欢上你的!

Sorry!

Sorry!
Sorry!
Sorry!

If you read my blog and feel worried for me, i am so glad to know you that you are concern about me.

Anyway, i am okay now.

The suicidal thoughts are gone now!

REALLY!

Thanks lot for being there for me.

I love you ppl!

I love God who sent these wonderful people to me.

Goodbye to this world.

Why cry?

I thought i told myself not to cry before?

I did?

Then, why did i cry again?

It is really painful, telling myself that this is reality.

Reality is i had 3 Us for my mid year.

Reality is my father passed away.

Reality is my god-father passed away.

I kept telling myself that i am ok.

I am ok with reality.

It hit me hard but i thought i can handle it.

Today, i just realise that i could not handle these reality at all.

Who will be happy to get 3 Us?

Who will be happy that her father passed away?

Who will be happy that her god-father passed away ?

Who?

Who?

Who?

Please tell me who, k?

I will ask why is he or her so brave?

Because i know i am not.

They said that i am so strong.

I am not.

I need a shoulder to cry.

I need a time for myself.

I need help too.

I kept trying my best to hide myself.

I kept..

But i realise i cant, cause there is no reason to hide.

I cannot do the anything at all.

Practically, i am nothing at all.

Though i know that i cant say such things, i am a child of God.

He loves me.

He will not let me do sinful thing.

He will not..

However, i will repent after i do this thing.

I am so sorry.

I didnt mean to choose this road.

However, i guess this is the only way to stop the things in my life.

I only want to end this life.


Then,
no more pain,
no more suffering,
no more crying.

No mather what way i tried to end my life, please understand Lord, i am only a 17 years old girl who cannot stand her life and her family.

I didnt mean to choose this method but i guess there is no one on this earth who will support me or love me anymore.

Then, i will rather join you in heaven, knowing that you will love me.

Amen.

我还想他

就这样。。

他是慢到不行的金牛座。
我是快到不行的水瓶座。

在这场感情的圖里， 我们是不会碰面的线。

但是，为什么我还要当笨蛋？


JJ- 我还想他（改编版）
泪水将我淹没
到底谁该难过
究竟是谁放掉这段感情

我才終于明白
辦不到的承諾就成了枷鎖
現實中幸福永遠缺貨

請告訴他
我不愛他
笑著難過
自我懲罰想終止這
一切掙扎橫了心說真心謊話

別告訴他
我還想他恨總比愛容易放下
當 淚水堵住了胸口
就讓沉默
代替所有回答

我才終于明白
辦不到的承諾就成了枷鎖
現實中幸福永遠缺貨

請告訴他
我不愛他
笑著難過
自我懲罰想終止這
一切掙扎橫了心說真心謊話

別告訴他
我還想他恨總比愛容易放下
當淚水堵住了胸口
就讓沉默 代替所有回答

我不愛
我不痛
我不懂我的心早已掏空
真心話言不由衷

請告訴他
我不愛他
笑著難過
自我懲罰想終止這
一切掙扎橫了心說真心謊話

別告訴他
我還想他
恨總比愛容易放下
當淚水堵住了胸口
就讓沉默 代替所有回答

別告訴他
我還想他
就讓沉默 代替所有回答

WOW day!

I went home early today though i wanted to stay back and studied in school. However, i went to toa payoh library to finish up my math tuitorial. This is seriously the WOW part of my day. I met two incidents which is like super WOW.

1st incident: Weird aunite asking for money.

To be truthful, my sister is the one who met this auntie. She was despositing her money while she met the auntie. The auntie saw that she "had" a lot of notes and asked for some. OH MY! Can you believe it? This actually happens in Singapore and at the ATM machine. This is like super direct and ridiculas.

2nd incident : A man folding incense paper in the LIBRARY.

This is even worse. I walked in the library, expecting my day to be better. In the end i saw this guy who use the library table to fold incense paper. My sister didnt see that and wanted to take the seats beside him. I walked away and almost told the whole library about how ridiculas to fold incense paper in the library. The table is for people to read and do their work. Or maybe, that is his work la.. HAHA!


RIDICULAS DAY! Hope that tml will be a better day!

Mid year!!!!

I know that crying is useless...
I know that I cant do anything to change my mid year result...
I know that I really did badly for mid year..
I know ..
I know..

I know a lot of things but i dun know what to do. I am really very disappointed with my result. Though i truly only spend two weeks studying for mid year, but is my standard that bad? I started to wonder whether i should be in JC? Is it the right choice to be in lep? Is it the right combination of subjects ?

There are just too many questions in my mind. I knew there is only one answer, God. He had a plan for me. I will follow it. These are just challenges in my life. I am gonna face it with Him. I knew that i am not alone at all. I had Him. So, i decided i am not going to be a loser who just cried for the result and do nothing about it.

I am going to STUDY MUG and do all things to make my pass my promos and get to J2. With Him, i had nothing to fear. He let me into nanyang not for any reason. SO, i dun believe my result is truly that bad. I am gonna stay in library everyday! I am gonna find the teacher for consultation until they are scared of me! I am gonna to mug like mad!

The time given is so short. However, i knew that in Him, all things are possible!


AMEN!

To darling!

DARLING!
你在哪里？为什么我找不到你？
我CALL和SMS你好几次，你却没有回答！
你不见了吗？ 还是我的电话有问题？ 还是你在躲我？
我只知道明天要看电影，但是，我不知道与你约的时间和地带。这么办？

所以，这首歌是送给你的，但我KUSONG了它。

我比想象中想你-JS

飞的越远越看不见
你阳光下灿烂的笑脸
在天和海之间
那条界限
慢慢地走远
你曾经是我的地平线
你有没有一点想念
我们一起前天的MSN
有种恋的感觉
在心里面
那么的强烈
而这一切好象只是昨天

我才发现我比想象中想你
只是一时不小心错过了你
每当夜深人静
我诚实的分析我自己
还是不可否认地

我比想象中爱你
浪花掠过沙滩边际 （海风就像你的呼吸）
我又看见我们的脚印 （那仿佛是回忆的痕迹）
如果遇见幸福的机率有千万分之一
不顾一切也要找回你
我才发现我比想象中想你
只是一时不小心错过了你

每当夜深人静
我诚实的分析我自己
总会从梦中惊醒
还是不可否认地

我比想象中爱你
噢噢~~ 终于发现我比想象中想你
只是一时不小心错过了你

每当夜深人静
我诚实的分析我自己
总会从梦中惊醒 还是不可否认地

我比想象中想你

three movies ..

i watched THREE movies within two weeks !!

cool! i love this june holiday! even though there is no exended holidays..

Last week, i watched the ghost of the girlfriend past.

On saturday, i watched dance subaru.

TODAY, i watched tranfomer TWO!!

I love the three movies!

Ghost of the girlfriend past is soo sentimental..

Dance subaru makes u feels like DANCING..

Tranformer TWO gives you a feeling tt you wanna to be that GAL.. ( the bf is soo cool, like the way how he treats his gf)

HAHA!

so watch ALL three movies if you hav time and $$ ..

父亲节

第一个没有他的父亲节。

习惯了吗？

当然还没。。

但是，我只敢在别人的背后偷偷地哭。

因为，我不希望让别人看到我的眼泪。

我哭，不是因为我想他。

我哭，是因为我的软弱。

为什么，我不能不想他？

突然好想玖

玖，我突然好想你。
朋友都觉得你不值得我这么想你。
也许吧。。
有人说，爱情是麻木的。
的确，
爱上你的那一刻，我已经不顾一切了。
就算，
我现在多么想要放弃，也没有那勇气去放下了。

突然好想你
词曲:五月天阿信
最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆 突然翻滚绞痛着 不平息
最怕突然 听到你的消息

想念如果会有声音
不愿那是悲伤的哭泣
事到如今
终于让自己属于 我自己
只剩眼泪 还骗不过自己

突然好想你 你会在哪里 过得快乐或委屈
突然好想你 突然锋利的回忆 突然模糊的眼睛

我们像一首最美丽的歌曲 变成两部悲伤的电影
为什么你 带我走过最难忘的旅行 然后留下 最痛的纪念品

我们 那么甜那么美那么相信 那么疯那么热烈的曾经
为何我们还是要奔向各自的幸福和遗憾中老去

突然好想你 你会在哪里 过得快乐或委屈
突然好想你
突然锋利的回忆
突然模糊的眼睛

最怕空气突然安静
最怕朋友突然的关心
最怕回忆 突然翻滚绞痛着 不平息
最怕突然 听到你的消息
最怕此生已经决心自己过 没有你 却又突然 听到你的消息




你不要再让我不时不时地喜欢上你了，因为我怕了。
我最怕已经决心没有你却又突然听到你的消息。
虽然我常说暧昧是幸福的，但活在猜疑及害怕当中，这一点，从来都不是幸福的。

我希望一切停止。
我希望我们能再次回到以前，或许，我不需要突然想你。

FLOORBALL chalet and bbq

FUN!
FUN!
FUN!

andd..

AWESOME...

I love the chalet and bbq a lot. HAHA! most prob beacause i was drunk~

HAHA! But many things become clear too. From my view la ..

HAHA! I still cannot forget the fact that they kept mentioning tt name!

I become so violent when i heard tt name. most prob because i was rejected!

I WAS REJECTED!

It was the three words that i kept saying thoughout the drunkness moment.

Even though i love the moment when i can just sleep directly, i cant stop thinking of him.

HAIZ

Kill me pls.. I really cannot forget about him!

HAIZ HAIZ

HAHA! But i love the ppl who joined in the drinking !


WE SHLD HAVE ANOTHER DRINKING SESSION~!

I LOVE AWESOME PPL!

I LOVE TO DRINK!

I LOVE TO BE DRUNK!

I LOVE TO HAVE HANGOVER!

I LOVE TO FLOORBALL!

I LOVE THE CHALET!

I LOVE THE BBQ!

I LOVE THE GAMES THAT WE PLAYED!

I LOVE THE TALKS AND CONFESSION WE HAD!

AND

AND

AND

I THINK I STILL LIKE HIM!!!


HAHA!






MAYB I AM DRUNK NOW!

Changes

I dun kno
I really dun kno

Is it because of the school,cca or even us?

I can feel that our relationship really change. You are no longer the one that i used to know. I started to believe in what they say about you. They barely knows you but i know you for so long. Should i believe in what in they say about you? Or should i trust the friendship that we have all these year?

My world is no longer just black and white. There are so many things that turn grey. I do not even know what is what colour! Why cant it be black and white?

Why cant everyone show their true colour?
If you say tt i am acting, FINE.. Then, i must say that you are a better actor than me.
You are the good guy, everyone thinks that i am bad guy. LIKE WOW!
Why cant u tell me anything tt you know?

Am i over-reacting?
Am i over sensitive?

I dun care..
I just wanna to say out what i dun like..
I wanna shout it LOUD!

PLS PLS i dun like these changes..

I DUN WAN THIS PERSON TT I KNOW!
I WAN THE PREVIOUS ONE!

Return tt person back to me..

小绿的一天

小红在我的窗前，每一次有风时，它总会动！

小蓝还活着，但是我估计，多两天，它就要走了！

哈哈！

每天的幸福指数都飙升到100 点。

引用ALICE 常用的话，就是“我多开心！”。

谢谢 DARLING！ 你的小蓝，真的有让我飘了！

谢谢 HONEY！ 你的小红，真的在每次有风时，动了。

谢谢 DAR DAR！ 你的小绿， 真的有让我AA到了极点！

哈哈！

YAYA, 我还在等你的！

哈哈!

我真的觉得好幸福！

能够认识你们！

能够与你们作朋友！

能够成为你们的好朋友！

好幸福阿！

幸福到~

我想吟一首诗！

诗人就是我！

《笑》

笑言笑，

笑笑，

笑一个！

整首诗的基调是开心的。诗人为了表达她的情感，而写了这首诗。属于豪放派的诗人，不顾诗有什么格律，就写了这首诗。这更显示诗人的冲动及豪放。

哈哈！

不诚实的人

哈哈

最近，我发现我的身边出现了很多不诚实的人。
明明就是喜欢他，却不敢讲出来。
有些人不是不敢讲出来，只是害怕自己不是真的喜欢他。

害怕做出错的决定。
害怕会错意。
害怕他没有想象中那么喜欢自己。
害怕自己会出丑。
害怕事情不是自己所要的。
害怕最后连朋友也做不成。

这么多的害怕，导致你整天神经兮兮。
给你一个建议，做一个了断吧。
直接一点，
问他，
你是不是喜欢我？
如果他是好男人，他会立刻给你答案。
如果他拖泥带水，这种男人不要也算。

最重要的是，你已经解脱了！
你不需要每天为此事而烦。
这样，不是更好吗？

可能是因为我的性格很直吧！
所以，我会这样做。
但是，我认为喜欢就是喜欢。
如果他不喜欢你，你再这样做，结局都会是一样。

好好痛快地把问题解决。。 这样，生活才不会被打扰。
我只能说这么多了，再多，我怕我会变成老太婆。

哈哈。。

总之，不要老了才来后悔为什么当初没有这么做！
ＬＩＶＥ　Ａ　ＬＩＦＥ　ＷＩＴＨ　ＮＯ　ＲＥＧＲＥＴＳ！

单身公害

haha! i was listening to this song and will like to share it with everyone! AND.. Since someone wants a translation, i will try my best to translate the lyrics of this song. XD


单身公害 by 蔡依林

oh乖不能再战败
( good.. pls dun fail again)
站起来你还没出皇牌
( stand up .. you haven take out your weapon)
恋爱这竞赛你要放手一博放得开
( in this love competition , you muz learn to let go)
oh乖你擅长被淘汰
( good.. you are always the one to be eliminated )
后冠都派完你还在发呆
( the winner is crowned and you are still stoning XD)
没人靠过来
( no one wants to stand here)
太高贵别人会转台难怪在派对惨败
(too high class.. no wonder you will fail during party.)

没人疼没人爱小心单身是公害
(no one dotes no one love, be careful that bachelor maybe a harm)
优雅的在使坏他才会离不开
(elegant is playing bad so that he will not leave)
没人疼没人爱小心单身是公害
(no one dotes no one love, be careful that bachelor maybe a harm)
小心寂寞对健康有害
( be careful, lonely maybe harmful to body.)

oh乖你擅长被淘汰
( good.. you are always the one to be eliminated )
他们情人都换到第几代
(their lovers have to change to which generation)
你是反面教材
(you are a bad role model)
周末夜爱却留白一再在舞会惨败
(weekend no life and lost in the ball again)


不要怪身材要怪脑袋你应该重新再倒带
(dun blame your body, blame your brain. you shld re-start everything)
观望的等待怎么会盛开
(looking and waiting does not help to blossom a new love)
难怪让爱不痛不快
( let love be no pain no fast)
明天才做谁的乖乖牌
( tomo then be some other good good )


没人疼没人爱小心单身是公害
(no one dotes no one love, be careful that bachelor maybe a harm)
优雅的在使坏他才会离不开
(elegant is playing bad so that he will not leave)
没人疼没人爱小心单身是公害
(no one dotes no one love, be careful that bachelor maybe a harm)
小心寂寞对健康有害
( be careful, lonely maybe harmful to body.)

haha! hope that my translation helps..

骑士

好希望生活中，能出现一个骑士！ 我不需要王子，但我要骑士！

亲密

最近，刚看了一部电影《亲密》。起初，我真的被这部电影闷坏了；甚至曾经后悔用了10 块钱。但是一切观点都换了，就因为这个影评。

这是岸西导演的第一部电影，影片继承了岸西式的缓慢节奏、散落讲述、温情又充满悲伤。看的出来导演的用心良苦，影片不时穿插着青马大桥上汽车轰鸣而过的情景，两个主人公在车里发生一系列心理变化时，车外走丢的狗，散步的老人，玩滑轮的年轻人，通过这样细小又一闪而过的镜头，突出了这不过是个生活小品，在大都市的一角发生的爱情故事。或许不是爱情，因为从头到尾都没有人提过这件事，但是看的人都明白，两个主角汤少和阿佩是心灵相惜的。我们在这个钢筋水泥的城市，不过是一个被生活和工作束缚的生物体，像阿佩和汤少一样，就是这样窄小又破陋的写字楼里，他们一样可以被彼此吸引，这要感谢暧昧。

导演采用了倒叙的方式，新颖的地方不是穿插讲述，而是从头至尾的倒叙，片尾字幕缓缓升起时，我们定格在一年前，暧昧滋生的地方。在场的很多人为这种倒叙的方式不解，甚至有人看不明白开始和结局，我想导演应该不会在乎这些的，像《海角七号》一样，这电影是拍给有心人看的。给那些经受过暧昧的洗礼，为情所困，一地伤痕的人看的。

这是一个公司的市场部，市侩又计较的球叔，内向不说话的小聪，时尚又多嘴的珠珠，温柔细心的阿佩，在工作和家庭上都饱受压力的汤少。出场的人物很少，因为故事很简单，在这样狭小的办公环境里，阿佩和汤少没有理由的被互相吸引了。


一年前，汤少埋怨公司热，没冷气，阿佩贴心的找出小电风扇和电池。然后公司大厦失火，阿佩和汤少逃上天台，在汤少大堆的抱怨中，表现的是一个中年男人对未来的惶恐，家庭，太太，女儿，未出生的儿子，公司，业务，每一样东西他都要担心，如果每一样东西都可以保险，有条不紊的继续生活下去，那他会不会就飞似的逃出这个城市去找寻失去的自我？此时的阿佩不停的安慰着他，两个人在看似一堆废话的对白中，心的距离逐渐拉近了。没有经历过的人不会明白，要接近一个人的心，有的时候只是那么一刹那，他感觉到你明白他，就是这么简单。所以当阿佩说准备辞职时，汤少欲言又止，他想要她留下来，又用什么理由呢？说她在这样一个没有花红没有医疗保险的公司会有前途？还是说他听到她要走，心里居然荡漾出大片的舍不得？这就是暧昧滋生的土地，在一个看似绝望的环境里，找到一个可以让自己感觉到温暖的人，所以阿佩留下了！
十个月前，阿佩、汤少、球叔一起去见广告商，接待室里球叔惶惶不安，他无时无刻不担心有人在用闭路电视监视他，做过太多亏心事的人就会草木皆兵。时逢星期三，球叔找了个借口跑到楼梯口去买马。阿佩无意中触碰了闭路电视的开关，看到球叔偷偷买马的事。她和汤少相视而笑，这就是暧昧的肥料，他们共有的小秘密和语言，一些只有他们能明白的笑话，一些只有他们懂的话。汤少抱怨身心疲惫，想彻底休息一下，阿佩建议说周末不去打高尔夫球就不会这么累了，汤少无奈的告诉阿佩，如今的客户都会打高尔夫球。所有人，也许连汤少的老婆都以为他是喜欢打高尔夫球的，可是这天以后，只有阿佩知道他为什么要学打高尔夫。就是这样一个男人，为了生活和工作的压力，连周末都被剥夺的男人，找到了一个可以听他说真心话的红颜知己。

六个月前，整个部门去应酬。珠珠喝多了，呕吐、神志不清，小聪寸步不离的守护着，关心着，这就是另一种形式的暧昧。珠珠是知道小聪喜欢她的，但是她不想拒绝，或者是舍不得拒绝。因为被人关心着，注视着可以让人更自信也更温暖。珠珠是典型的城市小姐型，有些自私，有些八卦，又有些娇气。所以她也不会拒绝小聪。看着他们两个一个走一个追的情景，阿佩体贴的笑了，这是一种心理上的共鸣，因为她明白小聪。接下来是她替喝醉的汤少开车，然后对着一个睡着的人大段大段的自白。这是因为暧昧在心里膨胀成爱之后，有苦难言的委屈，还有暗恋在心里斡旋的温暖。这是暧昧的并发症，当你有千言万语的话想讲给一个人听，却没有机会和立场的时候，就只能这样趁着他迷醉时对他吐露心声。“怕你知道，又很想你知道”如果你试过这样喜欢一个人，你一定会理解的。


三个月前，八号风球。阿佩独自站在西贡码头等汤少回来，期望夹杂着失望，除了狂风骤雨，弱小孤单的阿佩什么也没等来。出租车抛锚之后，阿佩一直在尝试拨打汤少的电话，也许她来这里只是为了偷偷看他一眼，不被他看到，也许她希望被他看到，这些都不重要了，因为在最落魄的时候，汤少的车从阿佩身边飞驰而过。这样的见面方式，一定不是阿佩一直期待的，在她最需要他的时候，她要的不只是一个简单的擦肩而过。阿佩绝望的站在雨里，欲哭无泪。这个片段之后，我再也没有见到阿佩真心的笑过。她终于认识到暧昧之后带来的难言的苦楚，她与他的心灵亲密，却只是他生活里的过客。

两个月前，阿佩和珠珠在西餐厅吃饭。珠珠在讲述球叔如何跟厂家拿回扣的时候，无意中说出这件事还有小聪知道，那时候她和小聪的关系也已经很亲密了吧？而阿佩关心的不是这些，只是会不会连累汤少。这时候，汤少带着太太女儿出现在餐厅门口，此时的阿佩很尴尬吧？要做到像朋友一样坦然简单却困难。如果安慰自己他们本来就是朋友，阿佩的心会痛，她不时的皱下眉头，就说明她不能忍受。可是距离感确实是有的，这又该怎么解释呢？汤少的太太从洗手间走回来，正在自乐自美时，一个气球爆在身后。这是她看不见的东西，在破裂，在撕扯。

一个月前，汤少的同学和阿佩上次在码头认识的司机同时来找他们两个午饭。此时的小聪和珠珠也在眼神上有了微妙的变化，珠珠的眼睛里依然是自己，小聪的眼睛里却多了很多询问和不满。这是暧昧的化学反应正在消退的表现，他们感情的变化像法国菜的配菜一样，很好的映衬了阿佩和汤少的感情。电影用珠珠和小聪的进展来表现阿佩和汤少的感情进度，却一直在主人公身上着力表现心情变化，也许这就是文艺片和商业片最大的不同吧？阿佩和汤少四人在电梯里是一段很微妙的描写，同学的自说自话，司机小江不时的斜眼观察，只有阿佩和汤少两个人是不自在的。很多时候我们都会这样，期待与一个人接近，接近的时候又恨不得飞出那个狭小局促的地方。这是矛盾，也是悲哀。暧昧是有距离的，突破了这个距离就会失去所有的神秘和美好，这是两个人的默契，也是潜在的规则。可也是这种默契，迫使两个人不能再走近。

一个星期前，阿佩去找十三年没看过的医生，一个曾经和她妈妈有暧昧的医生。阿佩说妈妈是因为子女才叫爸爸搬回家住的，医生却若有所思的告诉阿佩，不要这样想，因为谁也不知道你妈妈在想什么。十多年过去了，当初的暧昧成就了今天依然心灵相通的知己，虽然不会再见面，但是有一个如此懂自己的人又是多么的难得？所以阿佩问医生，你们是从什么时候开始不一样的？她其实是在寻找一个答案，来解救自己。可是当她发现这种暧昧无迹可寻的时候，她不得不面对现实，谁也不知道是哪个眼神或者微笑，让我们听到自己心底的碰撞。在爱与不爱之间的，叫暧昧的东西！


今天，还是这五个人，还是汤少的银色两厢小轿车。球叔说小聪最近失恋了；小聪拒绝再和珠珠说话；珠珠以为小聪出车祸流露出一种焦虑和担心，现在开来，在影片最开始的这段铺垫，恰恰是导演想说明，一切到了该结束的时候。汤少给阿佩介绍了新工作，这与一年前的表现截然不同。阿佩气愤，委屈，却也相对无言。离开是不舍得，不离开是没完没了的伤害。阿佩气汤少的懦弱和薄情，她觉得他想打发她走了。所以阿佩赌气的说，你开了我吧，还能多给我一个月的工资。暧昧的最后是会这样的，两个人都觉得是时候离开了，却谁也无法狠心先说再见，于是就会把这样的权利推来推去，因为这样才会在心理上被动承认，我们结束了。又或许，从来没有开始过？当阿佩赌气要下车的时候，汤少又于心不忍，把她带到海边，他们都知道迟早是要结束的，可是又都在和时间挣扎，多一分是一分。汤少的电话响起，这个男人始终不是自己的，还是要还给别人的。听着他对妻子的温存话语，还留恋什么呢？还是要懂得成全，懂得放手，过自己的生活的。所以阿佩下车，一路走回去，汤少一路跟着，终于在阿佩决然进入铁闸，把这份暧昧重重的关在门外之后，汤少也走上了回家的路。

至此，影片结束。一部简单温情又触动人心弦的爱情小品。

其实看文艺片不是要用心，光是对着屏幕暗自使劲儿什么也看不进去，更多的是要用感情，重要的是理解。

每天我们会遇见形形色色不同的人，也许某一天的某一时刻，你

身边就出现了一个可以和你心有灵犀的知己，这个时侯请你记

住，只要暧昧，不要相爱！

失恋

不如趁早，放手把爱坠落让满地鲜红。

作不成的爱人，变成最好的朋友。

我相信时间可以冲淡一切。

其实失恋也没什么，时间长了，就好了。一个人也没什么不好。

失恋也代表下一次的恋爱开始了。。

I DUN LIKE HIM

AHH!!


I DUN LIKE HIM ALREADY!

WE ARE JUST FRIENDS...

or forever...

好辛苦

好辛苦！

被暗恋的人很幸福，但暗恋的人很辛苦。

虽然我不知道他是否幸福，但是至少他不用每天苦恼下一步要怎么走。我深怕自己会走错下一步，所以不敢走。但是，如果不走的话，时间将停止在那一刻，关系也会停止，什么都会停；但只有我的喜欢不会停。

我应该主动一点吗？ 他却又是保守派。
我应该原地不动，就等吗？ 他却又是一个木头。

这样也不可以，那样也不可以。。。 头脑好乱，心又更乱。

你可以不要每天这样的折磨我吗?
我害怕有一天，我会发疯！！

没原因，就是喜欢你！

My situation!

I am in love with this song!!

羅志祥 - 幸福不滅

作詞：嚴云農 作曲：阿沁 (F.I.R.)

沒原因 就是喜歡妳在初次相遇
又重逢的心情深呼吸
讓心動隱形完美的愛情
是無聲的旋律
聽 我聽妳不確定的語氣
等 我等妳放下妳的憂鬱
嘿 如果你輕輕閉上眼睛
我會明白妳做的決定

Cause i believe 那幸福不滅的定律
在你手心 會有誰誰給你的美麗
緊張痕跡 就讓我的心安靜地守著妳
祝福不用回憶

沒原因 就是喜歡你
就像海全面 天空般的心情妳靜靜看著妳背影
就足夠時間
無條件的放棄
妳 如果妳愛上他的心靈
愛 如果已沒有我的空隙
嘿 只有妳可以用點開心
我會情願漸漸被忘記

Cause i believe 那幸福不滅的定律
在你手心 會有誰誰給妳的美麗
緊張痕跡 就讓我的心安靜地守著妳
把祝福送給妳

oh i believe
Cause i believe 那幸福不滅的定律
妳的手心 不一定要由我握緊
就像恆星 總會有發光的原因
oh i believe
妳值得被珍惜
也值得我放棄

class bbq and floorball outing

YO!

Love the class bbq .. FUN

Especially the part when we act out the love story song.. XD

We shall do tt again and upload it!

Anyway, floorball outing is fun too! Even though i am not there..

A lot of things coming up! I cant wait for all the tests .. HAHA!

HSK cum outing

WHAT!

We need to pay 10 dollars just because we did not wear our uniform!

WHAT!

Why do we need to wear our uniform? It is to show that we are students. Then., what is the use of my ez card? I can actually wear my seconday school uniform since they insist to wear uniform. The most antagonized thing is that we asked about what should we wear. AND someone did tell us that we can wear home clothes! ARGH!

ok.. anyway, paid 10 dollars and did the exam.

For the outing, it is fun. Though the dinner is super duper ex ( i think that my this week is gone case ) , but i enjoyed it. haha! Happy Birthday nana ! for today and tomorrow is gero ! Anyway, we found our best position , so hopefully we can keep it that way.


LOTS OF HMWORK!

CCS IS A SUCCESS!

SHIRT THINGY IS 3/8 DONE!

MY CLASS ROX!

HAD A DRY DAY BEFORE CCS!

I REALLY WANNA TO WEAR THAT DRESS SOON!

NOT GOING BACK TO THAT PLACE!

DARLING AND HONEY ROOX!

FB A DIVISION COMMIN SOON!

GUYS, JIA YOU!

LEP CAMP IS COMING!

MY CLIQUE ROOOX!

GONNA TO PASS ALL TEST WITH As!

HOPEFULLY

HAHA!

I ROOOX!








( if anyone from fb , pls start to pay rest of the payment. haiz... another looooooooooooooooong shark week.)

April FOOL

HAPPY HAPPY APRIL FOOL!!!

Firstly, i will like to wish my sister a happy birthday and happy APRIL fool. She is older now and 16 !! I pull her along for N16 movie!! HAHA!

Secondly, the oreo thingy really works!!
LOOOK AT MY RESULT.

3 teachers
my floorball team
AND a number of victims !!

So wonderful to know that many ppl love oreo. The new combination of "green tea" and cream.

Lastly, you made my day high and low. Can you stop doing that? I dun like it.



























ARGH!!

Floorball

Just came back with prizes from floorball match. I love the those ppl who pushed me, they didn let our team get a goal but manages to give me a prize.

My leg is super painful now!!!

Fine, everyone knows already ( including her). SO WHAT?

It does make a difference in my life but i haven see the difference only. If i could not stand any of such things, i will go for confrontation. HAHA! Scary, but i love the idea of it. You will know the answer right after it. So that, your life can have another target.

Ok! Now, it is the time for my "favo" subject,CSC. bye!

( i am talking to myself again!)

SCHOOL IS FUN !

I am enjoying my jc life. Though my teacher says that we should be stress up and want to study more, but i seems to ignore. Or should i put it in this way, my class helps me to igonore it.

Let me sum up my school life for these few days or weeks !

TEN THINGS THAT MAKES MY SCHOOL LIFE ROCKS!

1. I am still able to go for cell due to my sat tuition. I thank God that i am able to make it for almost every cell meeting.

2. Floorball simply rocks my life. I love my zi cai ( my stick ). I bet everyone who sees it, will also love it.

3. I have a GREAT bunch of friends who always help me and take care of me. They are always the joke of the day ( HAHA!) or the reason that i wanna to come to school daily. THANKS PPL!

4. I have another GREAT bunch of teachers who love to give homework. Though some of their jokes are very lame, but thanks for cracking it out to let me know that there are even lamer jokes than mine.

5. My stoner club is currently recuiting new members! All potential stoners, please come and look for me!!

6. My friend and i have great enhancing programme. We will accompany each other to eat papayas daily. ( for those people who dun understand, its ok! )

7. I found singing partners! I may not have a good voice but i can SING! Just tt my pitch will be lower !! (HAHA! )

8. GREAT school with GREAT hill! Just realise that i asked a very stupid question today, i ask where is the staffroom ( third or second floor ) . SO STUPID! It cannot be second floor cause our school is practically started on second floor. XD

9. I found my lst crush. :)

10. I found my 2nd crush. :)

I am NOT flirting! XD

I am still the INNOCENT shuwen!!

DUN LIKE HIM

SUPER DUPER DUN LIKE HIM!

HE IS IRRITATING!

HE IS SO ACT!

HE IS ALL THE BAD THING ADD TOGETHER!

My blood is boiling at the moment. I dun kno what to say BUT i am super duper angry.

ARR!

I SEE YOUR TRUE COLOUR! HAHA!
















I AM GOING TO DO SOMETHING ABOUT IT!!

WAIT TILL YOU KNOW MY POWER!!













HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

JC LIFE

Fun..
Exciting..
Tiring..


I finally decided what cca i wanted to join. However,i still ponder about it. I love floorball especially the stick. But the thought of travelling to kallang for training, it is really freaking me out. I still have to travel to kallang ALONE tomorrow due to my lesson which will end at SIX. It is so sad. That is like my only reason which is pulling me back.

I love my class. The class drama is on daily. We have new focus daily that you will never be bored in our class. Everyone takes good care of each other. LOVE THEM! I love econ too! A bit more on the teacher side. HAHA! Cause he loves to stone. He seriously beats me in the stoning part. I cant stone as much as he does. HAHA! With joy and vice president beside me, his lessons are even funnier. Oh ya! With van , you can notice every single guy de sheng cai ! HAHA!

It is a joy to be in this class. Though the teacher and homeworks are killing me, i hope that i can stay on with the help of my class!
HAHA!

0935

I LOVE MY CLASS!!


THEY ARE SOO COOL!!

WE GONNNA HAVE CLASS OUTING SOON!

GONNA HAVE CLASS TEE

AND NOW


WE HAVE




THE CLASS BLOG



I LOVE NY!

I LOVE 0935 TOO!

NYJC

Yeah! I am in NYJC! ( yawn...)

Am i happy or sian? HAHA! I dun even know..

Well, i got in NYJC because of CLEP.

So, i dun really think i should be in NYJC.

However, i cannot imagine myself doing groupwork in poly. I am the si si du shu type.

Anyway, i will get help if i need it.




He put me there for a reason.
I will trust in Him. I will follow His plan. His plan is perfect for me for He knows me well.

AMEN!

I am !&

(Shaking.. Shaking.. )

HAHA!

HAHA!

HAHA!

HAHA!

I am 17 now.. haha!

Feeling super tired ..

Especially when you still need to work on your BIRTHDAY!

HAHA! But at least it is a "special" way to celebrate my birthday.

I kind of missing the way that my clique will celebrate my birthday for me..

Yo!

When are you all going to celebrate my birthday???

My students are super funny today.

I am teaching SS today.

HAHA!

There is this student who wants to F___ whoever i said.

( Apparently, we are talking about chapter 2 on population growth.)

HAHA!

Anyway, my family members brighten up my day by bringing me to eat swensen.

We even ate the earthquake!!

Thanks to everyone who wishes me happy birthday! Thank you for the smses and facebook!

I kind of enjoy my day! So, i hope that everyday of 2009 will be the same as today. (NOT the tired part but the eating part) HAHA!

Wishes:

It's my BIRTHDAY today.

I wish everyone around will be bless in everything they do. They will always be happy! I wish that my family will know more about God and He will take care of them. I wish JC/poly will not be that hard that i can cope and go on to year 2. I wish to have more time to spend with my family and friends. I wish that I will be able to have a closer relationship with Him.

YEAH! OLDER BUT WISER!!

love you

I REALLY LOVE* YOU!

*my clique


Thanks! I really enjoyed myself yesterday.

However, i hoped that is not my birthday celebration! HAHA! Anyway, i am having sunburn on my face. Even though it cannot be seem on my red cheek ! haha!

I really hope to have another outing again. ( hopefully, to celebrate my birthday! ) I started to miss those time when we had together. Those good and old times.

I missed those planning days for everyone's birthday. We always tries to crack our brain and make it special. Though we failed many times , i must admit that there are still times that it is a success.

I missed those IVP times. When we help and support each other, though we face a lot of rejections by you-know-who. haha!

I missed having break together. When we can talk together and laugh together.

I missed those times when we have to stay back for CCA. We always find things to entertain ourselves like the class bear. ( or to cut hair)

I missed those result times. Rmb? When Miss Poon walked in and saw a brunch of gals crying at the door. Haha! We really cried like mad.

I missed those movies times. Emily so mad about L and all of us just dun care about her. Haha! We managed to watch L change the world and death note.

I missed those study times. When we tried to study together , but always distracted by someone. ( SOMEONE who always want to eat or sleep)

I missed music marathon. When we practiced our singing together and had our lunch after the performance.

I miss so many things that i wanna to have time machine so i can go back to sec one.

Now, though we need to go on with our life. We maybe physically separated from each other. We maybe busy with our school work or ( other things*hint hint*) . We maybe using study as an excuse in order to do other things. I pray hard that we can still gather every month to catch up with one another. We can still be the support for the each other. We will still call each other and tell them lame jokes.

because...


I WANT OUR FRIENDSHIP TO BE FOR LIFE.

NEW YEAR

HAPPY 2009 to ALL...

May God bless you in everything you do. He will be your refuge and strength for you. He will bless you with good health. Rmb His love and let nothing stops you for the year 2009. We gonna do things that are not within our limits. We gonna explore and find out more about the people around us. We gonna rmb our close friends and keep strong bond with them.

There are so many things to do. So, 2009 gonna be a FUN and LOVING year!


My 2009 resolution

1. I gonna to learn a new skill.
2.I gonna reduce my waist from 22 to 20.
3. I will go church whenever i can.
4. I must go every cell group meeting.
5. I will enjoys this year and joins everything that i can.
6. I will go out with my friends whenever i can.
7. I will make sure that my students learn well.
8. I will spend more time with my family.
9. I will conquer the world's SALMON.

YES! TT ALL .. CUZ its 2009 ...9


HAPPY HOLIDAY ! AND JIA YOU FOR THOSE TT ARE GOING TO SKOOL TOMO! :)